Give and Take

I'm not a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants kind of girl. I'm more of a plan-every-moment-obsessively kind of girl. And I'm good with that, mostly. But sometimes I just have to let go, at least partially. I've hosted more than a few parties in my lifetime, and I'm not bad at it, to be honest. But I have made the mistake of trying to over-schedule, Let me tell you something right now, if you didn't already know: guests at a party care about a schedule a whole lot less than you do. And they tend to stop and talk a lot, exactly when your schedule says to move on. But after a few slight mishaps, I've realized this isn't a problem as much as a fact about parties: your schedule should revolve around the guests, not the other way around.

And this year, I think I've finally found that balance. I threw a Valentine's Day party yesterday and it went pretty smashingly. I'd planned enough stuff to break the ice but there was still a lot of "unscheduled" fun. 

PC was there. My close friend C. basically forced me to invite him. She knew I wanted to, I just didn't have the guts to. I guess I'm grateful. I think even he had a pretty good time. 

The only downside was the fact that I've given up all sweets for Lent. Which for me, even normally is a huge deal. I practically live on sweets. I'm pretty skinny, mostly because I don't eat very much and have a crazy fast metabolism. But I eat way too much chocolate and candy. I can just get away with it, I guess. But on a spur-of-the-moment decision (one of the few I make that way) I heard a friend was giving up sweets and I decided to as well. 

Today is my seventh day without any sugar and, well, I'll be honest and say it's really hard. Especially when you host a party and you bring out platter after platter of cupcakes, chocolate, and cookies and you can't eat any of it. But I've almost made it through one week. And the second week should be easier, right?

I don't know really where I'm going with this. Just that I've realized life is much more give and take. That however much you try to schedule things, in the end they have their own way of working out. To set limits on things and make goals is way easier than carrying them out. But if you set your mind to something, and want it badly enough, it will happen.

xoxoxo
Angel

10 Things You Wouldn't Know

I feel tired of hiding behind a mask I don't even like, but yet not brave enough to take it off. Luckily, you guys have never seen my mask because I've never seen you. But, I digress and present you with this:

10 Things You Wouldn't Know About Me Just By Looking (or even talking to me for a while without getting to know me really, really well for a long time)

1. I am incredibly stubborn to the point of mulishness.

2. I am a perfectionist, but not the good kind. If something screws up, I either want to give it up or restart it but since I'm stubborn I keep going while hating it anyways. In other words, if something doesn't work out perfectly, I'm not a happy camper.

3. I like writing, but I don't do it as much as I should. I've been writing fiction since I was 8.

4. I have written, co-directed, and performed 4 of my own plays. 

5. When I was 12, I had around a six-month battle with anorexia that left me at around 5'6" and under 100 lbs. To this day, even at 5'9" and 130 lbs, I still see parts of myself as fat and ugly, and I still feel bad eating anything unhealthy.

6. I'm pretty much the klutziest person you will ever meet.

7. I get mildly ridiculously good grades in school and I honestly don't find it that hard. Over 95 % good. 

8. I play violin at an ARCT level and Piano at a Grade 9 Level and sing badly too.

9. I have perfect pitch.

10. I learned to read at age 4.